Formal fears

So today is my school formal. It’s strange really. I’ve been preparing for it for months and now that it’s actually here it seems sort of surreal. I’ve been trying to “diet” for the past few weeks in order to shape up for today, but it hasn’t really made a huge lot of difference. I’ve lost 2 or 3 kilos in about 6 months. That’s something at least. It’s more than I’ve ever lost before. Strangely, the only difference I’ve really made to my diet is cutting out most of the fat. Other than that I’m eating pretty much the same. Who knew fat could make such a difference? It makes sense though really. I mean, the body doesn’t really use fat on a regular basis. Fat is just the emergency store in case you decide to starve yourself (aka. dieting). Other than that it’s pretty useless. Especially considering the body runs primarily on glucose (aka. sugar).

Apart from cutting out the fat in my diet, I haven’t really done too much to prepare myself for today. I got a spray tan a couple of days ago for the first time. I thought it would be awkward, you know, being naked in front of a complete stranger and all. But it wasn’t. She talked to me the whole time she was doing it and I was so busy listening and answering that it was done before I knew it. I was a bit sticky for the next few hours, but it looks great now.

I also got my eyelashes done about a week ago. They’re not your usual fake ones. They’re little individual lashes that are attached to each lash until you have a full set of beautiful, long lashes. They’re supposed to last up to 3 weeks. It takes forever to get done though. Lying down for 2 hours without moving is surprisingly difficult. I had a slight reaction to the glue afterwards and my eyes swelled up, becoming bloodshot. But they’re okay now thank goodness.

I’m getting my nails done in an hour. I’m thinking a deep, red wine shade. My dress is black, my shoes are black with a metallic strip and my clutch is metallic also. So there’s not too much colour in my outfit. Red will go perfectly I think to add a splash of vibrancy.

I’m slightly nervous about tonight, to be honest. My dress is a tad revealing and my shoes make me look like a giant. I’m not the best dancer in the world either, so I’m not looking forward to that part of the evening. It seems strange that I’m so subdued right now. I’ve been looking forward to today all year, and now that it’s here I feel a little flat. Perhaps I’ll feel better with my hair and makeup done. I tend to feel better when I look better. I look pretty awful at the moment.

My best friend should be arriving soon for moral support. I’ve known her since I was born. Literally. She visited me in the hospital when we were babies. Sometimes I feel like she’s the only one that really knows me.

This is my first post, hopefully the first of many. I realise it’s not the most amazing post ever written, but it’s the truth. I promise to always speak the truth. Whoever you are. I doubt anyone will actually ever read this, but if you are then thank you. It means a lot to me.

Speak soon then,



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